...oit!!...

err.... ok lo~~ like dat lo~~ anything la~~
yes! i'm those ppl who are nt very ambitious~ LOL!!!
i noe... its good to hv high goals n etc.... but...
i still thinks dat.....
if i achieved it then ok lo~ if i can't then never mind la~
i felt dat... i wont be like those ppl... I mUSt!!! i mUst achieve wad n wad so on!!!~~
no! i'm nt dat kind of person... xD y dun jz keep ur life simple n easy~ hahahah!!!!

gee.... feeling dat my english gets suckier each post~~
well~~ nowadays i'm using more mandarin... n rarely use english in my daily conversation... >~<" sigh~ no good~~ lalala~ gosh~~ seems like lately each month only 3 posts~ >~<"

sigh~ boring....assignments+lab reports+hmwks+self-reading*facebook!* LOL!!!
hwaiting!!!!!!

...it wasnt as easy as you thought...

...as human grow older...eventually maturity level of a person will increase...

*...please take precaution towards ppl...no matter how close your relationship with that specific person...*

*...some ppl ll do whatever it takes for their own benefit....*

*...yes, indeed there are ppl who were trying to achieve their goal by faking themselves being very sacrificing or even very pitiful...."fake shit!"...*

*...some bitches even try to be friendly n get along with everyone or the majority jz to strengthen her network@base... be friends with you on purpose because u r beneficial... "she is using you la...." *

*...once decision has been made...don't to regret or complain bout it... its your own choice...dat is wad i always told myself.... so think very carefully before any decision has been made...mayb there are no turning back... *

*...you hv to stand on your own feet... don't let peers affect your decision... if the person are not going to be friends with you jz because they don't agree or respect ur decision... its time for you to think about that is that person worthy for you to be friends with...*

*if u saw him/her tear down another person.... surely he/she ll tear u down you jz like how he/she tear down that person if conflict between you and him/her happens....*

p/s: this is for u guys... no offense!.. jz trying to give some advise and hoping for the best... no matter what are u guys' final decision... I'll try my best to be as supportive as i could be....

...follow your own feelings, your heart and your own instinct...

finally...
I love u all~~ ^__^ muacks!

...this is no good...

hey~ how's life in Uni..?
SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!
i am unhappy!!! >.<"
always heard dat Uni life is fun!~
UR HEAD!!!!! my 2 month plus of uni life....nt fun at all....

my course oni gt 7 of us... 1 jz left... means.. 6 of us... 1 malay & 1 indian... left us 4... but... i cant really cope w them... >~<
>~<>~as usual... i looked... okay... but reality...?

next week mid-sem exam d... but i din learn anything much.... >~<
for da passed few nights i've been suffering from mayb so called stress or wadeva it should be called....
while i was sleeping.... suddenly felt dat i fell from a high place.... or.... while dreaming... then i told myself dat its a nightmare wake-up!!!! it wasnt jz once or twice... its many times..... T.T

i felt dat *most probably my coursemate hv da same feeling too..* v r a bunch of guinea pigs... v were like stupid MSU's experimental toys... argh.... i dun like it~~~ everyday was hoping dat tomorrow will be better... but izit so...? praying for a better tomorrow.... seems like nth much.... even i always keep in mind dat..."a man is happy as long as he chooses to be happy"... but it doesnt work either... *sigh*

oh... btw...after a few incidents... i felt dat... actually i really don't hv much frens.... i can't differentiate.... who r those i should keep n those i shouldn't keep.... hv i neglected those who i really should care about...? or i cared too much for those who actually doesn't worth for me to care for...? i tot dat u r really a true fren of mine... u tell me dat i'm nt good n etc...but... y besides telling me.. u did back stab me...? but while u r back stabbing me u r telling its for my own good...? @@" u din say it in front of me bcuz u still care bout my feelings...??? i almost got crazy... i'm so so so confused! they tell me to confront u... but i think dat u've ur own reason to do such act...? do u really really still care bout us...? i really duno how m i suppose to react... i still rmb dat once i ask u... will us b like sm other ppl, very close frens ended up turning into strangers...? without hesitating u answer me, NO! we wont! i duno what misunderstanding happened between us... or mayb i really wasnt as complicated as u tot... i tried very hard to keep on da positive side... sm even say dat i'm an idiot being so +ve after listened to wat u hv said dat hurts me.... i really hope dat dun bcuz of sm other stuff affected our relationship... a bond dat was so strong... but now...? i really duno... i still hoping for the best... cuz i really do care.
sigh.... yayaya~~~ my exterior is very glam... w lots of frens... large social networks.... interior...? its kinda hollow.... >~<"
i miss home... i wanna go back....

p/s: sorry for such messy post....

my current status.... desperate.